Liar, Liar, Pants on Fire.

Reality.....

Must you really be that harsh?

I've been reminded again today.

How I fail in that one aspect. The aspect that wins half the battle.

How I don't have that ability.

My lacking will be my doom.

Oh dear God...

It's just that.... it took so long to build up.

But then again, I realize it was made up of LIES after LIES.

Wow.

I managed to bamboozle myself all these years...

Lying to myself...

That I'm this and that...

When the reality is much the opposite.

Who the FUCK am I kidding.

It wasn't acceptance.

It's just a bunch of lies I tell myself.

And here's the bonus: I believed em'.

I'm just amazed at how I managed to bluff even myself.

Well, it's too late now. It's destroyed completely. Back to the drawing board. Back to square one.

Starting from scratch now.

The nightmare and the mindfuck will now commence. See, this will be the part where I say "I'm so strong.... this will be a laugh."

Now I'm not so sure.

Perhaps it's for the best, eh Danny boy?

Maybe now you'll learn your fucking place in this world you piece of shite.

I just wanna see how you get it through this time... now that all your fraud's been exposed.

Do it right this time. Remember...

Acceptance.

Not lies.

How the hell it worked for me all those years I will have no answer.

Dear sweet love, thank you so much. But I'm afraid it's not the same.

This is a problem within me that only I can solve.

I guess it's high time I prove to myself,

Have I really gotten stronger,

or am I still the fucking pussy I've always been?

Alright then, where do I find enough morale to get me through at least this and next week?

*sigh*