Ayam Sakit.

Damn it.

I hate it when my joints give way before my muscles.

First, my knees.

Now my elbows.

I can't even do ONE push-up.

Do or die IPPT in 3 weeks...

How the fuck am I supposed to get silver, let alone gold?

OOC la. Become private. Nothing on the epaulettes.

Right? Become instructor at BRTC la. Slowly rise become sergeant. With no fire badge.

Earn shite pay.

All your friends POC..... all sergeants.

Let them meet you at BRTC.

Then during Raya meet up with your buddies...

Tell them about how you OOC because of your elbows.

Fuck...

You fucking ayam sakit.

Light duty warrior.

Every day making me sick just thinking how you become like this.

Eh, go see specialist. See what he say.

I really, really, really hope it's nothing. I hope it gets better fast. Please. PLEASE.

These arms are supposed to protect and save lives for a safe and secure Singapore.

Supposed to take care of my loved ones with them.

Not fail on me. FFS I'm only 20 years old.

.....

Maybe I'm just not destined for greatness?