How To Make A Brain Bomb

What you need: A fully-functional, average-sized human brain.

1) Add "fear of the unknown" due to not knowing what to expect from here on out, having just passed out as a sergeant and bearing responsibility for a platoon of men.

2) Add "sadness" due to leaving my 33 brothers from Rota 2.

3) Add "missing the old times" due to 5.5 months of going through thick and thin with my buddies... sticking by each other's side, sweating, suffering and pushing each other to succeed. And look where we are now. But the pain is that.... everything back then are now just memories. We can never be "Rota 2" again... going through all that shite together all over again. :,(

4) Add "unjustified frustration" due to selfishness and disappointment.

5) Add "lingering guilt" from having acted in a childish manner.

Voila. There you go. An explosive waiting to blow your head wide open.

It's funny how I've always complained that I'm always numb and without emotion and now I feel so many at one time.

You can't say Allah hasn't answered your prayers now, can you? :)

6) Add "overwhelming feeling of helplessness" due to being unable to do something you always want to do every single second of your life. In my case, it's making you happy and making you smile. Baby, I swear sometimes it could drive me insane not knowing what to do or what's wrong and what I can do to help anyway at all. Sometimes it hurts that all you can do is pray.