Up, Down or Nowhere?

Sometimes I wonder whether I'm improving or getting worse, as a person.

The good..

I've just recovered from a dark time..

My gosh, the feeling of utter disappointment and having my morale hitting rock bottom that day.

But I've managed to collect myself and with some words of encouragement, I've emerged with renewed and strengthened motivation and drive.

But will it falter so easily this time like it did?

Hmmmmm.... I guess that's about it.

The bad seems to go in piles and piles...

I have to do something about my discipline.

My lack of willpower.

My selfishness.

And most of all my fading humility.

...

Maybe I'm going down after all.

Ya Allah, most Almighty and most Merciful....

Please forgive my sins...

Please guide my actions...

Please give me the strength to better myself...

For me, for them and for her.

I love them all so much.

I want to stop disappointing them.

Amin.