Please Forgive Me.

Ya Allah...

Most Gracious and most Forgiving...

I know why I'm going nowhere......

I know why my efforts seem futile.....

I know why deep inside I'm still absolutely burning with anger.....

Please forgive me, Ya Allah, for I have strayed yet again.

But could you answer some questions for me?

Everything seem fined til' that day.......

I was satisfied with everything that's going on......

But then you took it all away......

And I haven't gotten it back......

The way things were......

Why?

I hope your answers come to me soon in my contemplations.

Please, Ya Allah, I just want to know sooner rather than later......

Because it's driving me crazy......

Thinking how things would've been right now if those events hadn't transpired.....

I feel like my hard work had been destroyed just like that overnight.....

*sigh*

I'd just have another go at it, then.

This time with more force, more effort.

I have strayed.

It's time for me to forget my problems on earth.

For just one day.

and...

I'm sorry, darling. I really am.

I can't help but feel like a failure.

But don't worry about me....

I'll be stronger.

For me, for you and for the good times.